♥️ Ellie, it takes courage to face oneself. You have been through so much and I feel your hurt in your story shared. You wanted to be loved. You are now giving yourself the love you deserve by searching within ~ self-love sees the lesson. Empower yourself by validating your own experiences, without seeking his validation. Because it’s your truth. Your truth and setting boundaries moves you forward. He was and is still gaslighting ~ by openly denying your experiences and reality. He is also gaslighting himself by denying to confront himself. You are NOT responsible for him, nor his emotions (cheating, calling you a lousy wife, not putting out). You are responsible to yourself. The only person you can heal and change is yourself. To heal yourself will impact your life and your children.