Hi Rodrigo, Your drawing tugs at the heartstrings. The Christ Child ( sombrero/halo) in the arms of The Mother. The sacrifice. The pain that creates the divide. As a child, you knew the truth.
The art states deep sadness, a child who longs to be seen for who he is.

Your signature is equally telling. A dark heavy crossbeam ~ connecting José (name written in full) and unfinished “R”. A dark heavy dividing line /cord that connects past J with current J.
Regardless of the circumstances regarding your Mother, a child deserves to be loved. You can have empathy for her but must show this to yourself. Grieve the loss of a Mother’s love you deserved but did not receive.

Your healing and answers will arrive when you take care of Little Rodrigo.
When my mother looked into my eyes, as a child I knew she was looking for the son she lost.

What I’ve since come to understand is that Jose and my brother fulfilled their destiny. They would have died regardless.
It is up to us to care/love the one who is alive to heal the inner child.
❤️